Growing 0.15 cm - Pieces of thoughts

“It’s okay if you cry,” because you suddenly told me so
For some reason, I felt happy and a smile spilled instead of tears

With way-too-awkward words, I ended up hurting you
However, you didn’t leave me
And even now, you’re supporting me like this, surely…

A wish I want to fulfill, a dream I want to fulfill, thoughts I want to send, everything-
The act of continuing to believe summons a miracle and it’s connected to the future
Forever, hey, I want you to watch over me forever
Dear My Friends

“You’ll be fine,” because you told me so when we were about to part
The loneliness that I felt, with that single remark, vanished neatly

To open a new door- Anyone would be scared and full of anxiety about it
But because if I recall you, who pushed my back
Strength comes and overflows in me

Honest feelings, inexorable things, frank words, everything-
If I could convey them audibly, then the future would unfold
Always, yeah, because you exist in my heart always
Dear My Friends

Even if stand still, even if I seem to forget
I vow to face forward time and time again, for no matter how many times
Light shines in from the sky that I looked up at
Until the day when I can meet you again

Growing 0.14 cm - Back to kampar and hello 2010!

It's already the third week of 2010...

I knew I haven't updated my blog for a while...

But bah.. ..

Classes are rather packed besides Wednesday which is totally free. Wednesday was supposed to be my final year project slot but...

I'll only start doing my FYP during my semester break.

I'll be going to bintulu to catch some animals...

Hopefully la..

Cool?

Not really, because I'm craving for things to do.

Hmm...

I've forgotten that I have my resolutions and plans... ...

I shall realized them before the end 2010.

It's not "shall" that should be used, it's "must".

Have quite a few photos to upload but will update them soon...

So stay tune if there're anyone reading this..=)

Growing 0.16cm ~ In the process of transforming..

Dear people,

This is me...

The current me...

The fat me...

The indescribable me...

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Bah..lazy to edit the photo cause pointless..

Am in the process of transforming into this

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Either one of them would do..even if I have half of their face...except the one on the far left =)...

p/s:
my hormones are still normal and I don't need guys to reach orgasm...
I need to regain my confidence...ROAR..being fat for 20 years is so unbearable...
Why am I fat?
Coz I like to eat.
Why I like to eat?
Coz I live to eat..
Wrong!
I should eat to live..
but i still love to eat...=(
Bah!

Ramblings won't help!
It'll make you grow fatter!
ROAR!!

The end... ...

Pathetic me...

Growing 0.15cm - I've married myself to orchids! =)

Again, I'm pretty late in updating my blog.

It's purely due to laziness...=)

Anyways, I've been training under Sarawak Biodiversity Centre since 5th October.

So this is what I did.


Still dunno what the hell did I do for my training?

By the way, you can call me a gardener because that's part of my job. =)


Still not satisfied? Still scratching your head?

Aiyo! I told you I'm a gardener. I keep the plants alive every single day...except for weekends..


And yeah, I plant some orchids too. =) Bad photo quality, my bad...but still the flowers are nice, right?

p/s: I like purple that's why I said it's nice...=x

If you might think what is that fluffy thing or you think that it's sweet floss candy that you happily lick your way through, think again! It's freaking fungus contaminating my experiment! RAWR!

Great! I think I've exposed my job....T.T
Ok la! I'm doing plant tissue culture now. It's actually cutting leaves, stems or roots from parts of the plants and placed in nutrient agar medium to let them grow into new cells and finally regenerate into new plants.

I've tried to explain it as simple as possible..hope you understand..=)

My working bench..=)

You might think that it's dry and boring job..but I like my current training now.

At least my supervisors and the staffs there are friendly..=D

At least, I get to try a lot of new stuff that I have never learnt in my plant tissue culture while I'm in UTAR.

At least, there are girls to glimpse at...opps..=.='' forgive my hormones..

At least, I'm in my lovely hometown now! Kuching food..nyahahahaha!

Alright, enough with my training.

So, what are some other things that I do during my weekends?

I learn how to bake!

Sissy? Lame?

tOOt off to people who thinks that way!

Coz baking is no more limited to girls anymore! Guys who learn to cook and bake will never have to starve themselves to death. =D
First try - Apple pie! Well, it was apple-liciously scrumptious! Though the crust is abit thin and the apples were overly packed inside it...it was still YUM!

I was thinking of pouring half bottle of cinnamon powder into the apples before baking but...too sweet might cause diabetes..so I gave up! =(

Second try - Dark chocolate tart!!!

The crust is abit to hard..=.=''' It's the damn recipe's fault! At first, I put the flour as written inside that book and I had to knit until the mixture became a dough. But it ended up into a sticky mixture...what the hell! So my mom and me had to modify by adding flour and voila! The crust is as hard as rock! =.='' I guess when you hit the tart to the wall, it will definitely bounce back to you.

But still...I like the tart cause of the chocolate...yum!!

I guess that's all for now!

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Growing 0.14 cm - Am I a fish seller? o.O

LOL! Finished my finals several weeks ago and I got a B- for my genetics.

Genetics FREAKED me out during my finals. I almost leak out some urine...

=(..

Anyways, I should be grateful for not bringing neither a cat or a dog home...

On the other hand, I've just receive my industrial training since 5th October 2009. Will be ending my training on the 18th December 2009...

It's a busy life everyday..doing experiments and reports...

It's like back to campus life..=.=

But worst of all, I'm working as a FREE labour.

Nonetheless, I shall treat as an experience in the society. Rather than growing mushrooms at home, I learn to mix around with people. =D

Well, everything comes with a price. If you need some things to be fulfilled in your life, you will need an equal trade-off. That's the rule of life, ain't it so?

Oh, recently, some friends commented me as a fish seller.

Still don't get it?

It means I'm selfish..

Am I?

Until a certain extent, I admit it.

Let me illustrate an example.

I borrowed some books from xxx during finals since we are taking the same subject. I need them to do some references.

But I did not return them after a few days or weeks. FYI, we live under the same roof and I was an absent minded kind of person. I did that a couple of times as well.

Because of this, I was termed as selfish.

There are always solutions to every problems. Thus I formulated two methods:

1. xxx could have told me that he/she need the book so badly. Then, I would gladly return the book. The thing is, I asked before I borrow though I did not ask for the last time but after that, I've learned to ask with my mouth.

2. I shall not borrow anything from him/her. The last resort would be the library. At least I don't have to be labeled as selfish by the library. =0

Reasons behind that I may be selfish at times are:

1. I'm the youngest in the family.

2. I seldom care about other people. People MUST care about me instead.

Sounds like a spoil brat, right?

Still, I can't live in the society with such attitude.

People will HATE me as mentioned before.

So instead, I will choose to sell myself. =) Why? Selling myself to others is all about caring and helping those around you.

What goes around comes around..

If you treat people good, someday you will get your rewards even if that person treat you like a piece of shit.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Growing 0.13 cm - I want to survive!

I want to survive,
I want to survive,
I still can't stop wanting to survive,
Guided by the constellations, our eyes meet.

I want to survive,
I am at a loss,
Gently withering away,
But until I show my true self,
I will not sleep.

AND YES! I WILL SURVIVE TILL THE END, YOU BLOODY FINAL EXAMINATIONS! UNTIL THEN, I MUST PERSEVERE AND FIGHT WITH ALL MY MIGHT!

JUST YOU WAIT FINALS! I WILL TAKE MY REVENGE ON YOU! ROAR!!

The end...bye!

T.T... ...

Growing 0.12 cm - My English very good meh?~

Had my moral finals today. I had a sambal bihun ayam nasi belanda kueh tiaw goreng prepared for the lecturer... ...

I wonder if he/she likes it? I need a 7 star rating coz u can't find such dishes anywhere else in the world, right?

Anyways, I was having lunch today with my friends at Secret Brown Cafe at New Town (it's in Kampar, by the way) and FYI, the whole new town has electricity cut-off.

We were eating in a desert...

Soon after we finished eating, my friends started to comment on my english... ...

Not to offense anyone or hao lian (it's hokkien and it means sombong or proud or LCLY), they said I have a good command of english.

I was like o___O... ...

Some of my friends even said my english was too hard to understand whenever they read my blog or whenever they read what I wrote..

I was further 0______________O'''-ed.

I mean seriously, I would like to say thank you for complimenting me..but somehow I could not even utter that two words out from my mouth.

Simply because I was in this state...o___O.

But, still guys, I am still improving my English. I still have difficulty in reading books written by the British lang or simply the caucausians.

Their english is wayyyyyyy professional than me and wayyyyyyy more bombastic than me...

In every sentence, there are always three to four words that I could not understand...

I'm still a learner, ok? T.T But I don't read dictionary laaaa~ =)

So, what I wrote or speak is completely normal English...

*Note: I'm not despising anyone here. It's my personal opinion and I am still IMPROVING my English.

On the other hand... ...

Had a BBQ session with fellow housemates since I don't know how many weeks ago. Paiseh, I completely forgot the time ler...T.T

Me with the dorky look =.='' Not photoshop or whatsoever to make it look nicer or chio-er...sad, eh?

The poser girls. Paiseh, I only have this group photo. Sorry to the other girls. =(

The poser guys. The one without face is busy eating...=.=''

The grilled fish...with a touch of squeezed lime. Yum! Though it's a bit black, but still yum! =)

The food waiting to be cooked or rather BBQ-ed and served into our stomachs.

Not to forget...our birthday girl whose birthday is on xx.xx.1990...You've grown up another year now. =) Stay strong ya! =D

*Note: I put xx sebab I have to jaga her privacy ma...if you wanna know, go ask her lor...

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

That's all for now...bye!