Tolerating others... ...

Back to blogging.. ..

Which it's somehow miraculous for me to actually have the mood to babble.. ..

Feel somehow happy coz it's Friday... ...weee~~

Back to topic.. ..

Living for half a year in Kampar now really taught me a lot of stuffs aside of how-not-to-step-on cow's-shyt. Living with my friends somehow help me build up my tolerance and my EQ.

However, tolerating your friends or your coursemates means you have to suffer excruciating pain. Where? Especially your heart... ...the feeling of anger starts to build up in your heart till you want to whack that person right now... ...

but... ...I'm not that eager to do so at times... ...

Maybe I'm just too kind-hearted... ...

weird, huh?

Reason is, I don't wanna create unwanted quarrel..Plus, it takes up your energy and time to begin and end a quarrel... ...After all, I am going to see my friends in the campus for another 2 years.

Tolerate + No quarrel = Peace... ...

From another perspective, tolerating too much might not be a good thing... ...First, free oxygen radicals will build up when you are in stress or in anger which, in long run, will affect your body's health... ...

Second, people will tend to BULLY and FULLY UTILIZED you if you keep quiet all the times. People might think you are easily manipulated. In other words, YOU BAGAIKAN ALAT UNTUK DIGUNA TANPA U SEDARI because you are just too BENDUL LURUS. (Translation: straight)

I tried the second option before...by being cold to them. To tell you the truth, I have mixed feelings. I felt bad when I treat them that way. On the other hand, I'm feeling extremely angry and disappointed with that person since I trust him/her sooo much.

Back stabbed or rather feel being cheated... ...

Should I continue to tolerate? Or voice out anything that I don't feel right or fair to me?

Confuse... ...

Help? Anyone? X_X

Loathing myself.. ..

deserted my blog again...

vowed many times that i will update my blog but failed...due to:

1. Loads of never-ending lab reports to be done
2. Loads of assignments piling up non-stop
3. Student's Representative Committee Stuff - which I think it's rather troublesome..X_X
4. Club and Societies...

well, because of this, I've got no time to practice my precious violin, read my favourite manga or even play my maple story.... ....

If I were given a chance, I would wanna drop option 3. You know why? It's because it's taking too much of my time and energy. This thing occupies too much of my study time and I feel like I'm dropping behind from my studies. Oh man~ I wanna focus on my studies like when I was in secondary school, foundation or even my Year 1 Sem 1 in the university. How I miss the days where I can study whenever I want, do a few proposals, minutes or agendas, have a few short club meetings than sitting there feeling tension whenever there is a SRC meeting.

Argh~

I want this to end ASAP. I'll hope this semester ends fast cause I wanna have a long, relaxing three months holiday without SRC... ...

But... ...there's one more semester for you to survive... ...

Argh~ I pray hard that my new sem in Year 2 will end as fast as possible cause I wanna hand over my post to someone else already...By then, I shall laugh out loud! Hahahaha! No more SRC, bye bye SRC!! I really hope that day comes!

I REALLY WISH THAT DAY POPS OUT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!!! I WANT IT RIGHT NOW!!!

puff~

It's impossible~! T_T