1000th christmas... ...

The white velvet of snow,
As it falls,
Some fall to the ground,
Some fall to the branches,
Some fall to my hands...
I clasp the flakes...
But it melts... ...

I feel my hand,
It turns so wet,
and warm,
I feel a surge of sadness,
that overwhelmed me in an instance.. ..
Soon,
I can feel more warmth from the palm of my heads,
My breath becomes heavier,
My body shaking,
My gloves are wet... ...

The snow falls so gently,
It gently covers the earth,
With its coldness... ...
Alone,
I wipe away the droplets of sadness,
Why do I cry,
I wonder... ...
My heart couldn't tell... ...
It shuts itself,
Before I can realize...
What actually happened.. ...

I look up at the cloudy sky...
The sky keep pouring the snow..non-stop..
I keep feeling colder...

The snow falls as if pieces of memories,
Falling in non-stop,
I wanted to grasp them so badly,
But they melted so fast...
So fast that I couldn't even listen,
To the whispers of my own memories... ...

I wonder,
Can I collect these fragments?
Can I put them together?
Can I still wait?
Even until the 1000th Christmas,
Is there anyone,
that can keep track...
of these lost fragments?

Review of life as a living soul~

heh, at a glimpse at the title post, I guess this will be a little wordy. After living for 18 years, a lot things do happen. Since little, we were taught to walk, speak, sing, etc.. Every time we faced any difficulties, our parents would stand for us. The food, electricity bills, car loan, water bills, etc. were being paid by our parents. As for us, we just sit there and dream of becoming rich in an instant or maybe be the next prime minister or maybe be a galaxy hero. Our dreams seem to never end but as time flies, our thinking changes. We start to see things differently. We start to know and understand what is reality.

Once we are able to stand on our two feet, we are destined to face the reality or rather, the society. Some of us might feel afraid, some feel excited while some...they said it's not a big deal. It depends on individuals on how they think about blending themselves in the society. Along the way, some young inexperienced ones will find it hard to tackle the problems that lie before them. Why is it so? Is it because during their younger days, they did not take the chance to learn more about society? In other words, are they being ignorant about the outside world while living happily in their comfort zones? Or is it because they have already knew that the fact this world is so ugly and crooked that they dare not face anyone or even voice out their opinions? Or is it they take things easily and learn only after they face the horror of the world? Whatever it is, they are just mere speculations. I wonder which category do I fall?

Do people really dream since they only believe in reality? Yes, some do but some just stick to reality and continue to work and then retire just like ordinary people. When they dream, do they live their dreams or just merely a star in the sky that cannot be reached? Some live their dreams but some let their dreams lead their lives. They do not plan actions to actualize their dreams. They're merely daydreamers. To be honest, I have a lot of dreams. As to how I can really fulfill them, I'm still in search of the ways. It really bugs me at times whether the dreams that I have will shatter into pieces even before I start the first step.

To live your dreams is not an easy job. I guess it's very important that one should be strong and firm enough to protect your dreams from being destroyed by others. I know I may sound naive, but I think protecting your dreams is what you should do first before you live your dreams.

Still... ...

These unseen dreams of mine, will they be visible enough for me to grasp even if I work extra hard?

See how creative people can be?

Translation just in case you don understand~

We see toilet everyday~
I'm sure you won't barge in the wrong side,
But, think again,
Are you sure you won't enter the wrong side?

厕所大家都见多了，
你应该不会走错，
你真的不会走错吗？

Switzerland :: 超抽象的……
errr....I'm sure you know girls have what guys don't have and guys have what girls don't have...


Taiwan :: 怎么能这样……
It's a bit blur here. On your left is pronounced as "mu" written in chinese which means female while the other side is "gong" which means male... looks traditionally unique


Paris :: 不是每个人都能明白的……
Not everyone understands this, ask your 90++ grandma. See if she can guess which is for male and female...:)



Edinburgh :: 我喜欢这个……
Now, that looks cute~



At the Science Fiction Museum and Hall of Fame :: 超复杂的……
what's with XX and 00 and triangle and the robotic voodoo thingy...too complicated...even I will enter the wrong side...


Brighton :: 你确定你不会认错…… ？
What the lollipop are these signs? I don't get it..tell me if you get it~


Prague :: 请小心观察……
I see a star with an extra stick poking out. You know the drill, don't ask!


Austin :: 简约之极致……
Now that's what we call innovation! Even the "purest" mind of all can guess which is which..lol~


Atlanta Georgia :: 写实之极致……
That looks normal to me at least~


Bremen :: 抽象之极致……
errr~~ tell me, does man represents bush fire? And women represents wave? Or maybe the other way round~~ The best way to check is to enter both~~


Korea :: 好有童心啊……
kawaii~~ looks cute..


Scotland :: 好有乡土气息……
You can't find these anywhere in big cities! Ask your relatives or friends who are living in the countryside whether they have these signboards hanging in their public toilets or not. Maybe it's represented by a cow or goat or p*g....


Unknown :: 无语了……
Good use of the letter B...Come to think of it...it does somehow symbolize our butts...


Korea :: 洞察人性啊……
It's a humiliation to our male species...how can we ever enter the female toilets peeping the girls pee-ing or disposing their faeces (a polite to say sh*ting)!! We'll get killed instantly if we ever enter a women's toilet~~


Hah! See how creative people can be~ Around the world, there are different kinds of culture. Thus, the different kinds of designs created by different kind of people. However, some people tend to be too over creative until the public could not even comprehend what they mean... ...unless you're the same species with them, exaggerating-ly creative..lol~

Waiting for the day to arrive... ...

Mr Buffalo," Say Hi~~Moo~~I'm the big boss in Kampar~~moo~~"

Finally, it's almost the end of my foundation studies. It's rather sad yet happy coz I have somehow finished my one year of torturing in UTAR and I'm gonna miss my friends. You see, this bl**dy UTAR Campus is moving to a cow-boy town which I found this town is really boring, unattractive and utterly disasterrific. By the way, the campus is located far far away from the cities of Perak, Kampar. I'm really sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings. But to think of living there for 3 solid years kinda make me wonder what should I do over? Do some cow-boying stuff? Example? Riding a buffalo along the road while shouting, "Hiyaa~ Come on boy, let's move towards the rising sun!! Hiyaa~~" =_=" I really can't imagine me riding the buffalo. The buffalo might suffer from suffocation before even reaching the rising sun... ...

Talk about buffalos, they actually the big brothers of the town. Why? It's coz you must let the big bosses cross the roads before they turns the butt over and chase you with strong hard "batangs" till the ends of the earth.

The humble little town of Kampar... ... ... ...It looks small and of course...a little quiet

However~~~~ The air there is not as polluted as KL here. And they have lots of lakes and mountains surrounding this little town. It feels refreshing to stay there for a couple of days but...I'm gonna rot in the town for 3 years.

Complaining won't help at all... ...

Well, I have a plan actually to make my life there fun..heh! I've found something interesting and thrilling..

White River Rafting~ I wanna try this! Wanna feel the rough rivers flowing and waters splashing....Ar~ can't wait!

and~~~~

The all-time famous kampar curry bread~ Look at the chicken..it's the whole chicken inside this bread that we're talking!!! The sticky-ness of the curry zhap aka the sauce is really tempting~

Last but not least, it's the Grand Kampar Hotel!!!

Seriously, the price of the room is sooooooooo damn cheap...errr, it's affordable. only RM 80++ for a standard delux room with breakfast included! Heh! Am planning to stay there during weekends just to enjoy the luxury lifestyle once in a while. It never hurts to burn your pocket once in a blue moon....

p/s: I will not stay alone lar~ of coz ask my friend to share share a bit the cost ma~ after all, i'm still a student~ heh!

The days before the warmth comes.. ...

The warmth is slowly losing itself,
The leaves that once rustle,
Falls gracefully,
The once lush green view,
Has turned,
Into shades of hazel and brown.

Slowly,
The leaves are all at rest,
Flakes take their turn,
Falling gracefully,
A veil of silvery flakes,
Covering the earth.

The shivering cold,
Wraps every living soul,
Each seeks for warmth,
Warmth that has yet to come.

However,
In the midst of coldness,
Every souls,
Are waiting patiently,
Until that day arrives... ...

yeah, it's almost end of the year. That's why I'm writing this poem. See if you can guess what this "warmth" is? heh!

War!

War,
It can come so silently,
Like a rat,
Searching for its food,
Or rather,
A tiger searching for its prey... ...

When the time is ripen,
it explodes,
everyone's startled,
everyone's disturbed... ...

War,
It can come abruptly,
Like the still waters,
That turns rough,
Drowning everyone,
In just a blink... ...

Some turn to violence,
Some turn to peace,
Some stay unperturbed
Either way,
Fail to protect,
The peacefulness that have,
Started to crumble,
Before the dawn sets... ...

If only,
Human can forgive,
Human can reconcile,
Human can look,
Into the eyes,
and pour the words,
that slept in the depths,
of the living chamber,
real peace will then descend,
and touch the hearts,
of humans...that had onced,
being enclosed,
by walls of ice.

The ice melts,
where spring will reign,
over the chilly winter,
Flowers will start to bud,
The breezy wind,
Warms us,
Everything... ...
Everything... ...
Will start anew... ...

Heh, there it goes again.. ..My random ramblings. Don't mind me babbling about weird stuffs...By the way, if you do not get what I'm trying to say...errr...then...you just ignore this stupid, odd ball who has nothing better to do writing useless stuff babbling about wars, springs, flowers. Heh!

Laziness has once reign over me and of course...my blog..

~lazy and moody.....sighs...Do I look pretty?=_=''''''

I was not in the mood actually to post anything at all this past few days. Wait, is it few days?? No, it's already like few months already. I'm really short of things to blog about already. Yeah, call me a anti-socialist or anything you like. I just don't know what to blog about. But, one's thing for sure, I'm lazy... (Am I contradicting myself??) Plus, I don't own a camera or even a pathetic camera phone to take some bloody photos and post them in my pathetic little blog to let my hardcore readers (yeah, as if the whole world's reading your blog) to enjoy reading while happily clicking away on the pics to enlarge them in order to look at my magnificent photo skills. Well, photos can speak a thousand words...never actually see photos talking to me before.

Anyways, I'm going random again. This past few weeks, I've been rather moody. Anything that went wrong would definitely get on my nerves which makes me a hateful asshole. I feel horrible, terrible and vegetable. Why am I that moody? I fear that I have andropause(is that how you spell it?). It's really hard sometimes to control your emotions especially when you feel frustrated and angry. Yes, I know that smiling when you're angry or punching anything even your friend might somehow make you feel better. Still, it's easier than done. Would you still smile happily even if someone messes up your masterpiece on your presentation day? I don't think you can do it. You see, I'm kinda sick of this moody feeling. I really want to get rid of it..hmm, not to extend of ridding it once and for all. I just want to become a saint once a while. Saints are people who are very patient and forgiving when they are prosecuted even if the things that they've done were passing God's word to the world. If only I have half of their personality, then I would be half perfect. Nobody's perfect in this world, that's what I believe.

Btw, I'm officially 18 now after my birthday on 5th of November. I'm thankful for those who remembered and noticed the day when I was born. Thank you very much. Thinking back, I've been living for 18 years already. Still, I think I don't have much development in my maturity. I did this personality test somewhere in friendster and I found my maturity stage is only at the level of a 14 year old kid. It didn't surprise me at all since I'm know that I still think like a kid. I'm sure that because of my childishness, people start to got "sian" with me...("sweat drops!" It's too melodramatic!!) Must find some motivational books to read and build up my personality.

switch to happy mode..

Heh heh, I just bought a samsung MP3 last month. Again, no photos. I'll try to ask my brother who is still selling fish to take a photo of my MP3 to boast boast a bit about my MP3. Basically, it's light blue including some radio functions, file storage, music storage, microphone and so on.. I bought it at PIKOM (computer fair) with the price of RM297. Initially, my brother asked me to buy the ciplak aka capalang MP3 brand with cheaper price. But, I "lan si" want to buy got brand one. If it's branded, I'm sure it's more long lasting that the ciplak one. Right?

Finally, some wonderful pics to tickle your ass..

Female cats do have nipples and they need protection. Don't you think so?

Even doggies can live "harmoniously" with kitties...

That's all for this post..shall post more..if possible...

Random-ness..is..art..

Naruto's as good as dead...we shall remember you always..our true hero who always inspired us to never give up. We shall weep for eternity!!

on the other hand

sighs...feel so disastrous after the four tests and there's two more to go till I can spread my wings out for while..and that's three weeks..

current expression:

sad and bored face...I know this photo looks kinda familiar. For your info, that's not me. It's just a random photo of my friend, Mrs Beaver. Heh, the name's amanda. Reason for grabbing this photo, the expression is priceless. Just look at the expression..it's so wonderfully taken. Of course, this masterpiece is taken by Prof. Chouji.."

True enough I was rather wuliao that time taking pictures of many random people in the class..(that's before exam)..I even took some wuliao video

you know, sometimes taking random video is kinda amusing. It sometimes pisses one off easily..take a look at this spicy yet simple example:

annoyed ms wong....btw, they're a bunch of my utar coursemates taking the "breathtaking" scenery at bukit bendera..in the pinang fruit island

first comment..
red + hot = dammit!!
now that's spicy

oh, this video is a courtesy of Ah Xian..

oh holy lembu, I guess my post is too random..shall stop here for more posting!! Tata~~

Not abandoned but on a hiatus period..that's all!!

After I've received a comment from someone who "accused" me of abandoning my new bloggie, I'll have to tell you that I'm having my hands full with my finals now. So, being so frustrated and tortured (by loads of lecture notes and tutorials), I've got no mood to post anything lar. Furthermore, people seldom read my blog. Short of a few posts in a few months or maybe a year won't do me any harm lar..ish!!

Period.. ..

Anyway, I've found some interesting thing in my lecture notes. So, I've thought of sharing it with you guys.

Here goes:

>>I was looking for a parking space at Bangsar when suddenly there's a knock on the mirror.

>>'Encik ah...tanya sikit ah..itu chimpeng mana ah..?
>>'Apa?'
>>'Chimpeng, chimpeng...saya sudah tanya itu guard ah.. dia cakap sini ada satu chimpeng..'
>>'Sorrylah, apek. Saya tak tau woh..Apa tempat itu chimpeng?'
>>'Aiyah...itu chimpeng balu punya lo..Saya mau pigi angkat wang la...'
>>'Tarak tau la boss. Itu kedai ke apa?Along ka?'
>>'Chimpeng bukan kedai ma..lu itu pun tak tau ah..? Itu chimpeng macam itu Maypeng, Pubic Peng, RhetB Peng..itu balu punya peng..'

So..you get what the apek wanna say?!

Do you want to know d ans??

Wanna know or not??

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Ok lar..

it's CIMB Bank...Pity the apek lar..he doesn't know how to speak proper malay mar...sighs..

Another biology experiment-blood~~~

Well, well, I did another biology experiment which was not as gruesome as the mouse dissection. It's just mainly about observing how our red blood cells and white blood cells look like. Actually, I took some pictures with my friend's handphone. I know, I know, I should a handphone that comes with a camera, mp3 player,even with mp4 player and stuff like that. But, I'm so broke that I couldn't even eat a grain of rice. Pathetic, right??

Anyways, here are some random pictures:
The normal red blood cells under the microscope. Do you see the pinkish cells beside the needle? That's a white blood cell.

The pinkish ones are white blood cells. A small group of dark purplish dots are actually your platelets. (Fragments cells that are involve in blood clotting mechanism.)
Sickle anemia cell (Observe that some of the cells are like sickles or moon-shaped.)

After observing all the blood slides, it's now to determine our blood type which, is my favourite part. Heh, it's coz I didn't even know what my own blood type is. I'm gonna explain this coz it might sound too technical and complex. It's better to be simple... ...In other words, let the picture do the talking.
Officially, my own blood type is B+.

It's very simple to carry out this experiment. First, drop 3 drops of our blood on the slide. Mix each one with 3 different kinds of antibodies serum. The agglutination of blood will show which blood type you are. Heh, it's so easy that there's no need for me to waste my money going for blood type testing.

One of my friend, "Mrs Beaver" was tested B+ but later it changed to O+. Oh man, I wonder if she's reall a beaver or a normal human being??? She even squashed her own blood by accident or maybe not. See the results above the picture. See the greenish one?? She's definitely a beaver...or something else... ...

Overall, it's an interesting experiment for me.

p/s: Let's hope that there're more dissection activity in the near future. Heh heh.. ..

Top 8 things that We, Malaysian say, interesting...

Heh, I found something interesting in the Star newspaper a couple weeks ago. So, to avoid any form plagiarism, the article I've taken is a Saturday paper dated 11 August 2007. Well, I may sound formal, but I don't want to end up eating curry rice behind the closed bars.

Okay, okay, here's top 8 Malaysians' expression

1. ~lah
practically, everyone in Malaysia uses ~lah at every end of their sentence, especially when we speak English. Just in case there's anyone who don't understand what I said, here's an example:

A: Come on ~lah!! Let's go watch movie ~lah!!
B: Cannot ~lah! My mom don allow me ~lah!!

This is our version of English. Nope, I should've call that as Manglish. Aren't proud of ourselves. We have our own version.. ..

2. maachan
well, i think it comes from our translated word, "macam". Again, that's quite common in our daily rojak language!

A: Maachan itu bikin ~lah!
B: Maachan mana ~lah!
A: Maachan ini ~lah!

3. Brudder as in brother
That's REALLY common among the true brudders who speak aloud as if they sound like the ang mohs.

A: Yo brudder!! Long time no see ~lar!!
B: Brudder! Go yam cha ~lar!!

4. Ta pau
All malaysian use that!! We all know what that phrase means. So, no elaborations on that!!

5. cin-cai
Wa-lau (Oh My God!!),, cin-cai has so become part and parcel in our daily conversations.

A: You want to eat what ~lar..
B: Cin-cai lar, I cin-cai eat one!!
A: What cin-cai ~lar!! U eat shit ~lar!!

6. Aiyo
This usually means "What!", "How come?"...

A: Aiyo!! Apa maciam u bikin maachan tu ~lar..
B: Aiyo!! In maachan tak boleh ~lar!!
A: Aiyo!! I suruh u bikin maachan ni, u bikin maachan tu. You bodoh lar!!

7. Malaysia Boleh!!
This phrase was once being said by our former prime minister, Tun Dr. Mahathir. He's a great man who truly made, "Malaysia Boleh!!"

A common phrase used too.

Lastly,

8. Yam Seng
Nothing special about this. It's just merely means "cheers" in Cantonese. But, we use this widely in wedding dinners, or meeting out with old friends, or maybe celebrating successful moments with friends or relatives.

Aiyo!! Aren't we proud to be Malaysians? We have a diverse culture and languages. Come on ~lar, you can't get this anywhere ~ler! Maachan ini susah nak cari ~lar!! Cin-cai cin-cai ~lar, as long as we can understand each other, that's enough. eee-ni kek ra na we Malaysian's speak the same thing. Wow, never knew that we are so united.. heh!!

Second video of the sperms..double syok!!

Just in case you couldn't observe I posted, here's another clearer view.

Again. Video courtesy of Ah Xian.

A few pictures for you guys especially the girls to understand more about the man's tadpole.

We sprint and drift. We are filled with energy. We swim vigorously... ...just for the sake of searching for the eggs you girls hide. Even if we died before reaching you, we still fight hard to reach you.

p/s: we refers to the sperms. See, how sperms look a lot like us males trying so hard to please you girls. Just be thankful and nice a little to us guys.

Sperm in contact..syok again!!

Observe carefully, you can see sperm heads moving around

photo courtesy of Ah Xian.

Just before our mouse dissection lab session, we took some sperm samples from our voluntary friends. Well, it's not voluntary though. We somehow choose to vote among us guys with the old method: cut a few pieces of paper, write some numbers on them, then we randomly pick the pieces of paper. Heh, luckily i wasn't chosen for that.

Anyway, to make things short. Just watch the video. Observe carefully!!

The excitement of dissecting a mouse. Syok!!

I had my practical last Monday and it was absolutely a fantastic experience for me. It was my first time dissecting a mouse. To be exact, a female mouse. Heh, at first, when my lecturer demonstrated how to pin a mouse on its legs on a wax tray, how to cut open the stomach and the skin of the mouse, I went a little nervous as well as excited.

Now, after a long demonstration from my lecturer, it's my TURN to pick a mouse to dissect. Guess what, I picked a big fat virgin mouse who eats a lot.

Heh, it's my first time operating a mouse. So, I kinda mess up. See, the tonnes of fat and the visible kidneys.

By the way, I meticulously peel off the skin so as to not cut off the blood vessels which will spill out like water pipe. Then, I cut open the abdomen muscles with a pair of dissecting scissors to see the internal organs.

The long and curvy small intestines -I wonder how much she consumes food a day... ...

FORTUNATELY, we got the chance to see foetus (under develop babies) too in a pregnant female mouse.

The fresh "babies" from the mother's womb. It's just too bad it can't live on to see the world... ... "sobs"

Another picture of the babies in the mother's womb:

These ones are still small compared to the ones above. Still, I feel kinda sorry for them. "continues to sob bitterly"

Anyway, after the dissection is over, we were not allowed to chop off their tails into small pieces, or pancung their head or do whatever gruesome stuffs to the mouse. Of course, we won't! We stitched the mouse with the pins and wrapped them up in a newspaper to be thrown away. We couldn't bury them.

p/s: Rest in peace, mouse. I'm thankful to you because you sacrificed yourselves to let us humans to know more about you. Thank you very much.. .."sobs"

Honey-senpai... ....

Honey-senpai

Heh, I’ve watched the last episode of Ouran a couple of weeks ago and I still miss this show. I really hope there’s another season 2 for this great comedy. To tell you the truth, this is the greatest shoujo anime that I’ve ever watched. Right. Today, I’m going to tell you a bit about my second most favourite character, Haninozuka senpai a.k.a hone-senpai. For a senpai (a third year senior in Ouran high school), he looks kinda small. In other words, he looked a lot like a 3-year old kid. Being a black belt karate master, he loves sweet stuffs and of course his pink bunny doll. Weird, eh? That’s because he’s the loli shota type. He’s a kawaii (cute) type that loves eating cakes and holding his bunny all day long. He even has a cute voice which makes me want to pinch and pull or even squeeze his head with both of my knuckles. (Watch the anime for more information)

Honey-senpai, the master of disguise

Enough of the description… …

What makes him to be my next favourite character is because of his special characteristics. By the way, this is a spoiler!!! So, don’t read if you have no watch the anime or read the manga. Ahem, he’s originally from a family who practice martial arts called the haninozuka family. He’s the eldest in the family who will soon become the next successor despite his small size. However, the real honey-senpai loves cute stuff and eats his favourite cakes which make him naturally a cute boy rather than a karate master. Because of his father’s order, he has to give up all the things that he likes. Ha has to act in a more manly way which he definitely feels awkward. He feels that it’s not like him at all. He struggles. Finally, he made up his mine to release himself from this torture with the help of Morinozuka’s (he’s kinda like Honey-senpai’s older brother) advice. So, he returns school with his loli shota (absolute cuteness) behaviour. Well, his loli shota –ness always keep the girls in the school to go “kyaaaaaaaa~~~!!!!” That’s after he got discovered by Tamaki and joined the host club.

Of course, honey-senpai has taught me one important thing. That is, to become yourself. I definitely agree with this. Heh, I guess I’m a bit too obsessed with Ouran.


Loli shota type - Haninozuka Mitsukuni aka honey-senpai